At age 22 while living in Mongolia I developed a severe chronic pain condition that effects every aspect of my life. Continuing this blog reminds me that life's challenges are stepping stones meant to lift us, not roadblocks meant to defeat us.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Bad dream.

My goal is to be able to start writing without needing to say that I am embarrassed. I am embarrassed that I don't have much positive to say about this past week, and it is my fault. Things health wise are getting worse, I spent some time in the ER and after seeing a neurologist doctors think I have some kind of long lasting virus, not fibromyalgia. It is a mystery virus, so the plan is to try and get me to one of the MAYO clinics where there are more specialists. But for now longer lasting pain meds, a free month trial of netflix, and a determination to pray and study the scriptures more should help ;).
I had a funny dream today (some impressive nausea kept me from church, and the nausea medication kept me asleep). For the past few months I have been a bit sad to wake up because I was healthy and in mongolia, but not this time. It was a really realistic dream, I was back at school with roommates and I was really really frustrated and upset. As the days went on, I couldn't get happy, and I was mad at life. Other than being able to shrink my car and fit it in my backpack, it was a really realistic dream and such strong negative emotions, (at least that long lasting,) were new to me. And then hallelujah, I woke up!
Although we can't control all situations, we do have control over if we are happy or not thanks to the help that is available. I hope to be able to write soon and say that I am very very happy, and enjoying life :)
These things are on my to-do list...

- Talk to my Father. (Better sincere prayer every morning).
- Serve someone. (A simple note to a friend, make a gift, etc.)
- Be more kind to and appreciative of my family. (I am not used to being the recipient of service, and I can accept it more graciously.)
- Do something productive. (No matter how small. Learn a few more guitar cords, or paint a picture.)
- Count my blessings. (And don't forget them.)
- Read good books. (The best are the scriptures.)
- Learn how to shrink a car, and put it in a bag. (Just kidding.)

Hope everyone's week was great!!

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